#LL10 Why the past never really get passed?
Updated: Jan 31
It's always about love and lost and hate and tears! Haven't picked up my emotional mind for so long, but today I want to memorise this moment and farewell to this beautiful person.
I have had fantasied the first love when I was 17, which turned out imagination was so pure and magical. It was completely broken when the magic bubble get poked! OOOPpps. Sometimes we want everything to be on the right track, at the right time, with the right one, JUST EVERYTHING RIGHT. Who will ever listen to the unfortunate saying: "Come on, it takes your whole life to get to that person, hunt for that job.... " at the end the life passes .. and here I am 26 years old, I am still being very nostalgic and I am still believing in everything which is so ideal and perfect. But human is just that complicated....
Crouching Nude, 1913
Pencil on paper.
12 5/8 × 18 7/8 in
32.1 × 47.9 cm
Damn...I was so much in love, how could this feeling be so strong! Every smile he had, every tears faded, every tickles involved, every second it ran, the two hearts pounded, kissed and embraced. When the lies got revealed , the person in front of you have been very unreal along all this time, every touch and every word have been a huge camouflage, the lies hurt.
The truth hurts.
The courage to accept them has been pounding hard, just like the very beginning when our heart ran to each other.
kneeling female Nude, 1920
18 3/5 × 12 3/10 in
If one day, I could have chosen another ending, probably
I would have passed this beautiful lie.
Some people say the heart will bleed for REAL, I guess it is true now.
It bleeds so naturally, flows with the tears, and that you realise the heart has been shattered by the one you have been so in love with...
Just tell me why?
Madchen. (Girl.), 1918
Crayon lithograph printed in black on cream rag paper. Presented in a dark grey stained frame with conservation acrylic glazing.
15 7/10 × 21 3/10 in
40 × 54 cm